aliceinsane

Today has been a hard one. The first words I woke up to this morning were "Do you want to hear bad news? David is dead. He had a heart attack. " All I could manage in response was "Fuck." That is about the extent that it has been discussed. Nobody seems to know what to say, so nothing is said. But I need to talk about it. David was my friend, I guess. (I'd call him a friend, whether the feeling was mutual or not doesn't really matter.) I met David many years ago when I was a teenager working at the local bakery. well, I lie. He observed me while I was working one day and must have decided I had an interesting look. I never took any notic

It's strange and somewhat sad to think that the world continues to circle around so heartlessly. It did not pause for you. It did not spend a second to mourn. You were gone, and nobody noticed. Months turned into years. Two entire years I neglected to reply to your last message.  I did not know that you would die.  I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. I'd do anything to take time and forcefully turn back its ticking. I wish that I could have given you my reply. Ill miss you. It will haunt me. Sweet rest my friend Jan. Hopefully we will meet again in the next life. Xo